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Monday, March 17th, 2008
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11:39 pm - Wow. 2008.
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I have two words for some of you reading this. Ready?
Fuck. You.
For the rest of you, an actual update will soon follow.
(Please note: despite what some of you may think, the above "two words" are not directed at LG. If you think I would direct them there, then you may likely be one of the intended recipients of those words.)
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| Wednesday, October 26th, 2005
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12:28 am - Twice in one week...
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Now that I've gotten a little sleep since my previous entry, I want to share a little more. ( Read more... )
There's certainly more about which I intend to write in the near future but this is all for now. Oh, and we did finally turn the heat on in the apartment -- it's freaking cold out (granted, it's October and it's Maine, so it's not unexpected).
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| Monday, October 24th, 2005
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5:40 am - I wonder if I'll think this is coherent after I get some sleep...
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Okay, so it's been six months since I've updated -- that means another "let's play catch-up" entry here. Also, it's almost 5:00 a.m. and I have work in a few hours, so this might prove a rather ridiculous attempt on my part, but here we go.... :-)
First, I do intend to share the rest of the story from my previous entry but it will have to wait until another time (hopefully not another six months). ( Read more... ) --> It's now almost 6:00 a.m. and I need to go to sleep and get back up in a couple of hours, so this has gotta' be it for now.
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| Monday, April 18th, 2005
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3:05 am - Body Language
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Hmmm. I'm pretty tired but have decided to take a break from writing a paper to put my laundry away and update this here LJ (which means my writing may be sporadic and slightly disjointed). I'm not so sure this is a wise decision (as it's already so late and tomorrow's going to be a long day) but I'm sticking with it. :-)
Tonight, my knees and feet are imbued with ground-in dirt from a rug trampled by a multitude of students (...and I won't venture to guess whether the rug's dirt-laden status is due to extreme use or lack of maintenance). ( Read more... )
Okay, I know this kind of stinks, but it's currently almost 3 a.m. and I need to finish that paper mentioned in this entry's first sentence. So, I will follow this entry up with a 'part 2' in the (hopefully) near future. Suffice to say at this point that I was reminded in a very powerful way of why I think Dance/Movement Therapy isn't just a crock of poo and why I still believe I'm supposed to be pursuing further education in the field.
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| Monday, March 21st, 2005
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12:56 am - I have become obsessed...
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...with this site called New York Songlines. I'm finding it fascinating to learn little gems about the history, as well as development, of places with which I'd at one time been intimate (e.g., F. Scott Fitzgerald lived in the building in which my parents currently reside in 1920, when he married Zelda and the building was known as the Allerton Hotel... the street on which I worked for a number of years (14th) has been bouncing back for a while, but I had no idea it had attracted so many high-end designer boutiques, such as Stella McCartney and Alexander McQueen, etc.).
Anyway, I'm supposed to be working on a paper right now so that's it for the time being. Happy Spring, everyone!
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| Thursday, February 17th, 2005
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2:02 am - Let me tell you a story...
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This past weekend was a pretty enjoyable one for ![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) thelemurgod and I (perhaps I shouldn’t put words in his mouth, but I think it’s a safe statement).
( Read more... )
(…I said yes, of course…)
(…not that I think there was any doubt for those who know LG and I!)
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| Monday, January 3rd, 2005
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11:20 pm - Hey there...
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Yes, you there, you reading this... it's been a while, hasn't it? Okay, where to start? Doing this in chronological order and (hopefully) keeping things a bit more concise than my usual tendencies probably makes the most sense at this point, so here we go (I'm sure I'll be forgetting lots of good stuff, but that's where we're at): ( Read more... )
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| Tuesday, August 17th, 2004
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3:11 am - Christian Edward Martinez (follow-up to two previous entries)
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Thank you to everyone who dropped notes to my sister and Andy (as well as to me to pass along to them) -- the family was/is very appreciative of the notes and ongoing words of support and prayer.
Making a longish story short: Everyone who flew down to Georgia for the funeral is back now. Tammy (Christian's mother) had passed out during the funeral and was hospitalized briefly (her mind and body had just shut down from being overwhelmed) but she is out now and there is no lasting damage (they'd been concerned, as she'd been slipping further into unconsciousness). Things are proceeding as they relate to the charge/s against the boyfriend. There are, of course, many more details but I think that about covers what needs to be covered here.
Following are various links which might be of interest to some reading this:
Related Discussion in the Disassemblance Forum (you will need to scroll down a bit and find the thread titled "a bit blank")
Obituary with Links to Two Guestbooks for Viewing/Signing
Most Recent Article in Newspaper
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| Monday, August 9th, 2004
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4:45 pm - a bit blank...
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I have so many thoughts running through my head right now, and perhaps I'll write more of them out later, but here's an update on my previous entry.
The grandson (named Christian) of my sister's fiance who passed away as a result of choking on a cookie? Didn't choke. Died of repercussions from severe head trauma (the doctor doing the autopsy said there is zero question of this and that he knew immediately upon starting the autopsy).
Christian's mother's fiance was just charged with murder. It is apparently all over the radio/news down in that area (they're from Warner Robins, GA). My sister is on the phone with her soon-to-be mother-in-law (Christian's great-grandmother) as I type, sharing this latest news with her (both my sister and the great-grandmother are flying down tomorrow morning).
I do ask that if you are someone who prays, you lift this family before God, the 'God of all encouragement and comfort.' I am praying for many things, not the least of which is that, should there be ANYTHING that still points to it being an accident of some sort, that it will become clear as day, so that an innocent person is not convicted of this incredibly... saddening-beyond-expression act. Christian's mother has now lost not just her son, but also her partner (and this is a young woman who seems to have had more than her share of crap so far). I am praying that she will not just give up on life.
If you are so inclined, drop a note to my sister (you know her email addy if you know her) and she can relay the message to Andy and his family.
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2:59 am - Strange Days
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As mentioned in a recent entry, my sister's fiance's nephew (Billy) died at the end of June. thelemurgod and I had been at Billy's mother's house (my sister's soon-to-be sister-in-law) just a couple of days before the ATV accident which claimed Billy's life, discussing plans for my sister's bridal shower, which was to be held at his mother's house.
This previous Friday evening was spent at the bridal shower (understandably not held in the original location but at another soon-to-be sister-in-law's house). Everyone seemed to have a good time, my sister was 'showered' generously with gifts and good wishes, and the celebration was infused with laughter.
Early Saturday afternoon we found out that my sister's fiance's grandson (yes, he's a relatively young grandfather) was in the hospital and they were having difficulty stabilizing him. The story: he'd choked on a cookie, resulting somehow in his heart stopping, eventually resulting in "100% brain damage" and complete unresponsiveness to all testing, etc. Approximately five hours ago, they removed the life support system and this young one (17 months) has now passed on.
My sister's fiance has been with his daughter since early Sunday morning, and my sister will be joining them down in Georgia early Tuesday morning.
Strange days, indeed.
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| Thursday, July 29th, 2004
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1:40 am - Originally a 'side note' in my previous entry...
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To the ‘slightly younger folk' ... a plea, if you will: be gentle with those of us who are just a little older than you are (well, with everyone, but I’m speaking selfishly here for my fellow thirty-somethings).
( Read more... )
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| Wednesday, July 28th, 2004
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11:15 pm - Aharit
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My 35th birthday was just over a month ago. I remember years of thinking I wouldn’t be here on Planet Earth (“bop bop bop bop bop bop bop bop, this is planet earth” … anyone?) at age 30, either because of dying at a relatively young age, or because of the Rapture having occurred. Needless to say, neither has happened as of yet, so here I am.
( Read more... )
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| Wednesday, June 16th, 2004
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2:05 am - I am a liar
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Thanks to mikaeldraven, I recently succumbed to the temptation to do a free online handwriting analysis at handwritinglady.com. I had sent the results to my family and a couple of friends, as I thought they’d get a kick out of it (and for the record, though not 100% accurate, I’d say it was fairly so).
( Read more... )
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| Wednesday, June 9th, 2004
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1:12 am - Okay, you knew I'd be posting these results at some point... :-)
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| Friday, May 14th, 2004
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12:20 am - Everybody leaves in one form or another.
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I'd mentioned to thesaj a couple of years ago that I think one of the reasons being misunderstood is so hard to accept is that it reminds you that, at the very core of everything, no one understands you perfectly. People who know you better than you seem to know yourself still don't know you perfectly. It's a lonely realization. So, how do you respond? Let it consume you and bring further separation because nothing is 'perfect' or acknowledge the misunderstanding as a beautiful reminder of beautiful, diverse humanity (while simultaneously working at eliminating the misunderstanding)?
There is no one -- never has been, never will be -- NO ONE -- exactly like you. And yet, everyone, at the very core of everything, has the exact same basic needs -- perhaps not the same wants, and perhaps those needs aren't recognized or they're expressed differently, but the same needs exist in every human being.
Do you let the differences depress you or do you let the similarities keep you connected while recognizing and being fascinated by the differences?
Do you let the differences keep you away or do you return in some form?
'Love seeks not limits but outlets,' and never asks 'how much must I do?' but 'how much can I do?'
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| Friday, May 7th, 2004
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9:58 am - Okay, so the 'friends' thing...
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Wow, it's been a long time. Not that I haven't *started* a couple of entries, they were just never finished and posted (soon, perhaps).
I wasn't planning to do a 'friends' list for various reasons, but after months of manually entering info. on a daily basis so as to check a growing list of LJ's, I am caving and thereby saving time and energy.
If you find yourself on this list and for some reason can't figure out who I am, or want yourself off this list for any reason, please just let me know and no offense will be taken.
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| Wednesday, February 18th, 2004
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11:41 am - 'nothing new under the sun'
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I've occasionally/often found myself silent at times (both 'silent of voice' and 'silent of pen') because of the realization that something like 99% of things I've thought of or would wish to share have likely been thought of by the very people to whom I'd be speaking.
Or maybe that's just me.
I know that one of my own pet peeves is when someone is speaking to me in a manner which indicates that they think what they're sharing is either some grand revelation or new understanding to humanity in general or else to me personally, and it often makes me think less of that person for them not having assumed that it's *them* who has arrived at this understanding on the tardy side (or, not necessarily tardy in their own life's journey, but the assumption that others - or me - couldn't have arrived at the same understanding beforehand annoys me).
Don't get me wrong, I would never want someone to be silent; I just want to know that they're not looking at the rest of humanity using themselves as the standard. It's occasionally been a telling sign when, having started my sentence with "You may have thought of this, but..." they proceed not to listen. It seems it's that thing of buying other's self-hype; if I spoke in tones of self-importance or condescension, some of those very people would have hung on every word (I've seen it happen).
Still, I'd rather approach things from the end of the spectrum I'm on than the other, though I think it's best if we're all aiming for the balance --> neither hearing our own voice to the exclusion of others (and therefore never learning) nor hearing others' voices to the exclusion of our own (and therefore never teaching). We do, after all, each have things both to learn and to teach.
Pet peeves. I only have a couple of them, but they're there.
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| Friday, February 6th, 2004
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1:50 pm - ...
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... as is the green 'subject' text. Perhaps I'll take the time to figure out how to tweak it, perhaps not.
Anyway, for those who may be reading, I should say that, though I'd been thinking of starting something like this for a few months, I'd fought getting my own Live Journal account because I'd been hoping journaling would become an option on the Disassemblance site. It may still eventually, but LG has shared that it is in the distant future, if ever. So, here I am. :-)
Something else I should mention right at the start is that I'm not sure if I'll be allowing comments from other users. There are so many avenues available right now for 'dialogue' (verbal and otherwise) that I think if folks really wanna' say something to me, or discuss something mentioned here, they will find a way (hint: Disassemblance.com has an active forum which isn't just fluff ... oh, it's fluff, too, but not 'just').
Tied in with the above is that I keep finding little notes/reminders I've written to myself about things about which I need to write more extensively at some point. This is mainly for my own sanity and processing of information. It's been one means of figuring out what I really think for as long as I can remember, and I'm hoping this format will serve the same purpose: be a tool to cut through some confusion and hopefully gain some clarity, as well as venting and encouraging and sharing some of the aforementioned 'fluff' of life. I've kept journals (of the hard copy variety) off and on for years, and though there is still 'something' about using pen or pencil on paper, I've found in recent years that it's just quicker to use a keyboard (I never would have suspected this back in my 11th grade typing - yes, typing - class!).
Also tied in with the above is that I suspect there will be some very 'other aware' entries as well as those which read more like essays or "letters to God" or myself. This will likely be a very selfish place to visit, and I am making no apologies for it. Thank you for visiting, nonetheless.
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1:45 pm - Hmmm....
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... the way the Title is spaced/centered is really gonna' bug me.
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